Confessions of a runner.
Confession: I finally tried on my fancy-schmancy DetermiNation shirt the other day.
I didn't try it on before because I was afraid. I was afraid it wouldn't be comfortable. I was afraid that doing so would make it real- that I would actually be admitting that I was doing it.
Confession: I'm really nervous about running this weekend.
Ever since the "vanity race," I haven't been able to do a long run because of some pain in my ankle. And now it's been awhile and I'm afraid that I won't be able to run the entire 13 this weekend. I'm afraid that I should have been running long runs anyway, just in case. I'm afraid that I won't remember to concentrate on why I'm running- and that instead I'll worry about coming in last, or how I look compared to the other runners, or what other people will think of me when I actually do come in last. (When I'm actually thinking coherently about this- I'm focused on the fact that I'm doing this because it's hard and it's for cancer research. Period. Who cares if I come in last... Of course I'm shaped/dressed differently than other people. Who cares? But sometimes fear creeps in.)
Confession: I'm really excited about running this weekend.
I've been working toward this race since May. It's a big deal to me (and thus you're having to hear about it quite a bit). And seriously?! If I (with God's grace) can do this--raise the entire $1000 and actually finish!?! Do you know how amazing that will be?!?!
Confession: I used Camille as an excuse and bought blue sparkly nail polish yesterday.
I can't use my regular teal for this race. It will totally clash with my red/white/blue DetermiNation shirt. ;)
Thanks for listening through these past five months, friends. It means a lot to have your support.
I'm almost there- $825 out of $1000. (Wanna help? There's still time!)