Yup, I did just choose "crappy day" as a title for this entry. It's a little bit out of my comfort zone to use that language as a title, but it's true... There's a stomach bug that's been traveling around, and unfortunately it's hit our Blake. Again. Thus a very "crappy" day, if you get my drift. (And, if you want to travel down that road just a little bit further, it's been "crappy" enough that I'm going to get a new shower curtain out of this...)
As a result, for most of this morning I wasn't so much doing a great job of being a mom. There are three things I was really looking forward to that I don't get to do today because of this little stomach bug, and I'm ashamed to say that I allowed myself to take it out on the kids.
In the midst of this I was talking with a friend. She was letting me vent a little, and she asked me what I thought I was supposed to learn from this all. Sigh...her words were the third time I had heard that message in four hours. Sigh...ok...maybe I'm starting to notice the brick that is being dropped on my head.
Yesterday I came across Proverbs 31:26:
"She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue."
I was reminded of a seminar that I went to earlier this fall that used that verse as its theme. Do you think that I managed to keep those words and their message in my head and in my heart and on my tongue for a mere 24 hours? Did I manage to apply them in the midst of this "crappy" day?
I failed (again) with one of the most precious gifts I've ever been given- my kids.
[Pausing for deep breaths.]
The verse that comes to mind in response is Lamentations 3:22-23:
"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."
Praise God. I messed up (again), but I can start over (again). I failed. God doesn't. I was not compassionate. He always is. He always is.